Beapptitudes

Pure to the Core

Written on 07/11/2018
Luke Estrada


Psalm 51:10-12

Create in me a pure heart, O God,

   and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

11 Do not cast me from your presence

   or take your Holy Spirit from me.

12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation

   and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. 

When I think about my heart, I think about a place deep in my chest. I think of the place where my spirit meets with my emotions and my brain. My heart sometimes feels heavy and I have to carry around that weight in my chest. Other times, my heart feels like it’s missing and I walk around feeling empty, and that’s worse than the heaviness.

My heart is at the core of my day, how I feel, how I talk to people, everything. It’s even at my physical core, I can feel it pressing against my spine and feel it in my chest.

But open me up and what’s there? This “big feeling,” this “heart,” where the spiritual meets the physical isn’t there. But we all know this place intimately, most people would actually say that’s where “who I am” comes from. You are your heart.

Sometimes when we meet people we can tell exactly where their heart is. People can be calloused and hard hearted, they can be loving and tender-hearted. People can be lost and confused, and you see that in their hearts. I’ve heard people say that when God called for Adam and Eve he didn’t mean “Where are you?” geographically, but instead that he meant “Where is your heart?”

When we meet people do they see our hearts? Or the hearts that Christ gave us? The heart that he taught us to pursue? A heart of purity? Our hearts filter both the way we see the world and the way the world sees us, and we won't be able to see clearly with hearts that are impure. As we stumble about in the dark with unclean hearts, we are going to miss the beauty in God’s creation around us.  

When we instead put on Christ’s pure heart, when we make that heart our heart, then we will see the world in living color. When I leave behind my dead heart for the live one Christ gives, then the hole in my chest is filled and I no longer feel burdened and helpless. His heart renews the soul and restores the living Spirit within us. You ask me how I know he lives, he lives within my heart.