Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
As we have sat in this beatitude all week, I have often thought about the ways in which I may still need to mourn.
For clarity, I want to make sure that I say this: Looking back at things you probably need to mourn does not mean that we should open up old wounds that God has already stitched back together.
On the other hand, we ask God to show us what he is mourning over in the world. We ask God to break our hearts for the things that break His heart.
So what does God mourn?
Here are a few that I think of, but I want you to think of some more:
God mourns over oppression.
God mourns over death and decay within His creation.
God mourns over those going hungry.
God mourns for the people who have been exploited. God mourns over the division of his people.
As I look at these, it is not very difficult for me to look outward and say, “Yes, Lord Jesus! Break my heart for what breaks yours!”
My heart is ready to break for the oppressed, the dying, the hungry, the outcast, the exploited, and the division of God’s people—and I praise God that He is tuning me in to those things. Honestly, my heart is not nearly as ready to jump at the opportunity for God to break my heart over my own sin.
I want to challenge you to read this Psalm that David wrote after his sin.
Read it slow. Soak in the words. Ask God if there is any sin that you need to mourn. Ask Holy Spirit to speak to you through the text. What is God saying to you?
Here’s the beautiful thing: on the other side of mourning, God restores passion, energy, and joy. Allow yourself to be restored today.
God, give me mercy from your fountain of forgiveness!
I know your abundant love is enough to wash away my guilt. Because your compassion is so great,
take away this shameful guilt of sin.
Forgive the full extent of my rebellious ways,
and erase this deep stain on my conscience.
For I’m so ashamed.
I feel such pain and anguish within me.
I can’t get away from the sting of my sin against you, Lord! Everything I did, I did right in front of you, for you saw it all. Against you, and you above all, have I sinned.
Everything you say to me is infallibly true
and your judgment conquers me.
Lord, I have been a sinner from birth,
from the moment my mother conceived me.
I know that you delight to set your truth deep in my spirit.
So come into the hidden places of my heart
and teach me wisdom.
Purify my conscience! Make this leper clean again! Wash me in your love until I am pure in heart.
Satisfy me in your sweetness, and my song of joy will return.
The places within me you have crushed
will rejoice in your healing touch.
Hide my sins from your face;
erase all my guilt by your saving grace.
Create a new, clean heart within me.
Fill me with pure thoughts and holy desires, ready to please you.
May you never reject me!
May you never take from me your sacred Spirit!
Let my passion for life be restored,
tasting joy in every breakthrough you bring to me.
Hold me close to you with a willing spirit that obeys whatever you say.
Then I can show to other guilty ones
how loving and merciful you are.
They will find their way back home to you, knowing that you will forgive them.
O God, my saving God,
deliver me fully from every sin,
even the sin that brought bloodguilt.
Then my heart will once again be thrilled to sing the passionate songs of joy and deliverance!
Lord God, unlock my heart, unlock my lips, and I will overcome with my joyous praise!
For the source of your pleasure is not in my performance or the sacrifices I might offer to you.
The fountain of your pleasure is found
in the sacrifice of my shattered heart before you. You will not despise my tenderness
as I humbly bow down at your feet.
Because you favor Zion, do what is good for her. Be the protecting wall around Jerusalem.
And when we are fully restored,
you will rejoice and take delight
in every offering of our lives
as we bring our sacrifices of righteousness before you in love!